Fuck it, I'm going
Apr. 9th, 2008 08:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
athenaltenaSo since it looks like no one is going to get back to me about going to Boston in my car I've reached a mental compromise after a day of feeling sorry for myself:
I'll go in on my own to Newton station like I did with my parents, park there, get on the T, go to the Supreme Judicial Court and come back, effectively getting the best of it (the SJC) without the worst of it (inner-city Boston traffic).
I actually ended up doing a tarot spread last night after this was keeping me up, and in retrospect of what I decided it makes a lot of sense:
Since it was a basic Past/Present/Future spread I only had three cards.
Past - The World: Bringing parts together, integrating. The obvious application of this is that it's part of both school and what I'll be doing in the future, since it gives me a chance to meet the Justices (!) and get to know the area around Suffolk a little bit, since it's pretty obvious that the court house is right down the street from the buildings. Also likely has to do with what the Six of Wands means down below.
Present - Knight Of Swords: Mainly has to do with the mental disagreements I've been having about this, mostly the rational vs. the intuition. Drawing it usually means that you have to reach a compromise, which I have now with the T thing. I've also been having my IBS act up over the anxiety over this.
Future - Six Of Wands: Victory, triumph and feeling accomplished. Obviously if I do this it'll help reinforce that I haven't let what happened early to me (read: car accidents) permanently damage me and that even with my eyes impaired I can do it since I have a mental map of the area. And most of all, I need to prove to myself that I can do this and show that I'm not afraid -- or if I (admittedly am) that I'm not letting it control me *insert "Fear is the mind killer"-like quote here*.
Alright, so at 7 tomorrow we'll get going. I can do this. *nods*
I'll go in on my own to Newton station like I did with my parents, park there, get on the T, go to the Supreme Judicial Court and come back, effectively getting the best of it (the SJC) without the worst of it (inner-city Boston traffic).
I actually ended up doing a tarot spread last night after this was keeping me up, and in retrospect of what I decided it makes a lot of sense:
Since it was a basic Past/Present/Future spread I only had three cards.
Past - The World: Bringing parts together, integrating. The obvious application of this is that it's part of both school and what I'll be doing in the future, since it gives me a chance to meet the Justices (!) and get to know the area around Suffolk a little bit, since it's pretty obvious that the court house is right down the street from the buildings. Also likely has to do with what the Six of Wands means down below.
Present - Knight Of Swords: Mainly has to do with the mental disagreements I've been having about this, mostly the rational vs. the intuition. Drawing it usually means that you have to reach a compromise, which I have now with the T thing. I've also been having my IBS act up over the anxiety over this.
Future - Six Of Wands: Victory, triumph and feeling accomplished. Obviously if I do this it'll help reinforce that I haven't let what happened early to me (read: car accidents) permanently damage me and that even with my eyes impaired I can do it since I have a mental map of the area. And most of all, I need to prove to myself that I can do this and show that I'm not afraid -- or if I (admittedly am) that I'm not letting it control me *insert "Fear is the mind killer"-like quote here*.
Alright, so at 7 tomorrow we'll get going. I can do this. *nods*
