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Today at work we got our annual mailing from CHAPA with their information on our projects, so my job was to go and update our database with that info and then add the letters themselves to our database. I lost count after a while but I did approximately 100 of them, and my wrist was so sore by the end that it sounded like a cement mixer. But now it's done and I just have to make up the scan sheets and get them into the database for tomorrow.

I did get to take a break for an hour for an appointment with the counselor I've been seeing at the school, and at one point the joint in my wrist popped so loud that he could hear it. It didn't hurt, but the expression on his face was pretty funny. I told him what I've been thinking about trying to get on an antidepressant and he agrees with my reasoning. He sounded surprised when I brought it up, and I can understand why since I haven't been acting like I am depressed, but I am feeling the effects of it and I still want to do something about it if I can, if only because I owe it to myself.

He also agreed that it sounds like while the rational part of my mind is for the most part fine and that the sort of stuff we've been doing does work it sounds like there's a chemical imbalance based on the symptoms I've been having and the fact that they occur without any obvious reason, so he gave me some resources to start looking for someone who I can consult with about a prescription. He also brought up something I'd thought about, mainly that I might just get told that it's not worth putting me onto something, but he agreed that it's at least worth checking out. He also commented that I'm looking pretty good (I think I've lost some weight recently) and that I should definitely keep taking care of myself by doing stuff like going to the gym since it's been fighting off the worst of it.

Now I'm going to a talk by Denis Lehane (the guy who wrote Mystic River and Shutter Island) about his books. Hopefully I can get in because the tickets are first-come first-serve, and I'm bringing my copy of one of his books to see if I can get an autograph.

Eeeeeeeeeee...!

I have a shiny. And I can't stop clutching it.

The talk he gave was awesome, and he's funny as hell and really interesting. I think the biggest laugh was when he talked about how he had found out that Martin Scorsese was directing Shutter Island and it got leaked a little while later, and he got an email from an author friend with the subject line "Scorsese" and the text of the email was "Fuck You."

I got to ask a question about the moment he seems to have in every one of his books that's the major "Oh shit!" that completely takes you by surprise, and his response was that while some authors can get a lot out of really subtle moments he has to do the equivalent of drop an atomic bomb, and he brought up Shakespeare and the moment at the end of Othello when Othello realizes what he just did. When I was getting the autograph he also thanked me for asking that question.

So if you excuse me I'm gonna be in a puddle of fangirly goo for the next few hours.