Am I really that different a kid?

[athenaltena]

Well, I've always been told that I'm not the type of person you meet everyday, and despite my attempts to insist that I'm fairly ordinary I keep getting proven wrong. It's fairly common for people to believe me to be in college or even in my twenties, and they always seem to express surprise at my true age. It's something I've gotten used to, but I'm starting to see where that comes from.

Yesterday in my math class (a place where I often wonder how those kids and I were born around the same time) we got a test back, and I had a 93/100. I essentially looked it over, realized what I did wrong, said "Okay" and went onto the classwork. However, on the other side of the room people were just badgering the teacher about losing three or four points due to a technicality, and acting like it was the end of the world. One girl who's been a frequent source of eye rolls was complaining that she needed to get better grades, when one thing I'd do to start is not leave for 10 minutes to talk on my cell phone in the middle of class. Slight disconnect from reality there. Of course I never say these out loud, for the most part I keep to myself in class, but I see a lot of that sort of - well, juvenile - behavior that just never occurs to me. I just don't have whatever prompts those kids to badger a teacher over something I think is not worth the energy for.

I also seem to be someone people - especially adults - just intrinsically trust, and it always surprises me a bit when they do. I'm not sure if I just have an honest face, don't seem like the type who'd abuse the trust given me, or what, but in some ways it puts me under more pressure to not break it. It's an interesting situation.

So, no matter how I try and deny it there is something different about me, and I get tired of people thinking it's because I think I'm better or some bullshit like that. It's just - me.

Comments

[kawakiisakazuki.livejournal.com]

Well, I trust you, and I have only the vaguest idea of what your face looks like...

I hope I'm not being unfair to you, I mean, at your age you shouldn't feel like you *have* to be more mature than is normal. It's not like there's something inherently wrong with being juvenile while you are, well, juvenile... But I'm also a firm believer in the philosophy that people will rise to the amount of trust they are given, so...

You haven't betrayed my trust so far, so I see no reason to limit it based on just your age. I'm glad to know you. ^^

[athenaltena.livejournal.com]

I don't so much feel like I have to be a certain way, it's just that it's my default setting so to speak.

I have my juvenile moments, but it simply doesn't occur to me to pull some of the shit I see my classmates doing. I guess it's just a matter of wiring.

But thanks, and I'm glad to know you too. ^_^

[janus-2.livejournal.com]

As a person who has a difference of opinion on certain issues, maturity is how you handle that difference. I, for one, respect you for your actions. Your parents were excellent examples of proper behavior for you and it shows. Matuirty is also knowing when it is okay to have fun doing something and when not to do so.

[athenaltena.livejournal.com]

Thank you, I like to think I handle even difficult issues maturely and rationally. I think my parents were a huge influence on me, since they've never treated me like I'm a dumb kid and given me a lot of respect to rise up to.