Random Musings

[athenaltena]

22 days until my Russian student arrives, YAY! His name's Paul Shevelin, and he'll be coming on the 24 to stay with us for a month through my school's Russian program. He just sent me an email and I replied to it. I can't wait!

The fall foliage is turning around here. I'm so used to it that I really don't get why people come up here to see it. But if I lived somewhere else I'm sure I would want to. I love the sweet smell of the leaves on the ground, and no wonder our horses like to eat the fallen leaves. They probably taste good.

But I've been thinking about more than just Russians and leaves. I still don't know why I'm the way I am, what caused me to become like I am spiritually and what made me change. I can't really think of anything, it must be buried somewhere in my memory. I just know that until I figure out why I won't be able to completely unlock my powers.

Also, the life I lived with Shiro is puzzling me. After the Yakuza attacked me I still managed to survive, but logically speaking I should have died. I know this sort of thing happens a lot, but it's still puzzling. I'm not sure I believe in god, but it feels like something, maybe a spirit or the universe, didn't want me to die just then.

Geez, I must sound nuts. I don't usually think like this, but it seems like lately there's been a lot of strange coincidences. My friend Shippo gave me the manga xxxHolic for my birthday, and in there they talk about something called "Hitsuzen", destiny or naturally for-ordained events. I'm not sure I believe in destiny, but lately things have been making me start to think otherwise.

Comments

[ryllak.livejournal.com]

The reason people come up there to see the fall is, most places don't see them. :D Coming from the deep south, we see a few leaves turn brown and some yellow, but other then that we live in an almost year around summer, I'd love to see a *true* fall sometime.

As for your spirituality, I've been there many times. You should read a few books on Taoisim, they will teach you a lot about yourself, and the force around you.