athenaltena | Back (or should I say "ack!") to School

I start high school in a few days. Eep. I'm nervous for several reasons, including:

a.) Demon spawn (aka Aric) will be there, I hope he's not in my classes
b.) I can't sleep in any more
c.) I hope to meet a girl I'm compatable with

The last one should'nt really be considered a nervous factor, but I'm lonely. I'm sure about my sexuality, and I'm told the high school has many more, ahem, options. The market in the middle school was limited, so to speak. ;)

I still haven't gone shopping, and will in the next couple of days. I guess there's a reason to be anxious about that, since she doesn't know about me. I don't know what I'll do if she asks me about boys, it's a bad habit of mine that I don't lie about things like that. I just see no reason to. But then my brain reminds me why it would be good to lie. I guess telling the truth gets me into a lot of trouble. That was the reason the whole James thing started; because I was honest with him and everyone else.

Also, for some reason there's a tension in my house that's driving me nuts! I mean, I get some ketchup on the couch throw and I can hear my mother in the kitchen saying, "Oh, Rosemary..." like I shattered a lamp or something. As usual she's displacing her anxieties onto something, or should I say, someone, else.

Enough bitching. I was complimented when I had my end of the summer last chance pool party. Somehow the conversation turned to how all of us (my friends and I) are like cats in different ways. Ashley is a crazy cat (like one of mine) Angela is a luxurious long haired cat that sits in the window, and I'm much more self contained. People keep saying that. I guess it's a compliment.

I was thinking about powerful people I know, psychically, that is. It seems the really good ones can hide it well until you know them. I'm like that, unless you can see auras I'm not that out of the ordinary. But the few people who have seen my powers are usually pretty blown away.

The fact is, I could probably kill Aric if I wanted or needed to, not that it's going to happen in case Ashley found this entry. That would be my wicked I-have-no-choice-he's-gonna-destroy-a-city last resort. Killing him wouldn't do any good, it would just delay the confrontation, so the demon in him would grow stronger anyway. I didn't kill him before for that very reason. I beat him up pretty good, but he was very much alive. I just need to get close enough to him...

Sorry, thinking out loud (can you in writing?). Oh well, Saturday tommarrow. Bugs for my geckoes. Yum.