athenaltena: (Ritsuka)
So at the event I went to yesterday I was talking to someone and they described me as "extroverted" and I had to stop myself from bursting out laughing. That is a word I would never use to describe myself, but when I thought about it he was probably reacting to my body language, since I try to avoid crossing my arms in front of myself and similar body language that closes me off from people. It later occurred to me that since I naturally am an introvert I've gotten really good at faking extroversion.

This event itself was frankly kind of boring, and mainly directed at older people. It was about LinkedIn, and it mostly seemed to be explaining the site to people who don't know how to use it, and I'm pretty sure I was the youngest person in the room next to my friend, who's a year older, and I was the only '12 grad. We both agreed that most of what they said was stuff we've figured out intuitively from using the site, so it's a generation thing. Everyone did burst out laughing when one woman interrupted another question to ask how to remove people from your LinkedIn connections.

Today I took my socials security card to the temp people, so now I've got all my paperwork in. With any luck I won't need to use their services, but it can't hurt. I did get a bit lost since their office is in the Financial District and it's hard for me to navigate because of all the tall buildings, but I eventually found it.

ETA: My mom sent me a link to an article about INFJs, who apparently can read as extroverts, and it has some interesting stuff.
athenaltena: (Touko)
Well, now that I've been at my new job for over a week I can say some things about it. So far it's going pretty well and it's certainly made me life easier on the financial front.

I have a small cubicle which I've mentioned is right next to the men's room, which isn't too bad (though it does allow me to say that the whole idea that men don't talk in the restroom is completely false -- they gab up a storm in there!) and it's a fairly nice space. I've put up some pictures and still need a plant, but it's slowly becoming mine. The computer is also fairly nice but a little slow for my taste, and I may have to ask for another keyboard since the / key only works about half the time. This is a problem because I end up entering a lot of dates into our database. I already mentioned the supply catalog from Hell, but other than that they've not been too bad on the intern abuse front.

I'm right next to another kid about my age who works in a different department, and he's quite nice. According to him they're pretty good to us in general, so I hope that keeps up.

A major part of what I do is calling around to find out the status of various housing developments that our agency helps finance. For anyone who knows me in real life you can see why this is difficult since I not only hate phones but am also rather awkward on them. So far I'm doing alright with that and no one has been really nasty to me so far, but it is a bit anxiety inducing at times.

So in short, so far so good.
athenaltena: (Juri)
Subject line is sarcastic in case you couldn't tell.

We had our usual family shindig today at my grandmother's house. I came down at 10:30 to help my aunt and grandmother set the things up and do the sort of manual labor that's hard for them, and they paid me at the end of the day. Overall it was enjoyable though I still can't keep the cousins straight (and trust me, there are many) but I nearly flipped my shit at one point.

So this little 6 or so year old girl who is somehow distantly related to me (third cousin or somesuch) comes up to me, and the first thing she says is "Why are you dressed like a boy?" This made me do a bit of a double take, since I don't think I was dressed especially masculine today (brown short-sleeved blouse, jeans and my black heeled boots) but trying to be gentle I said that it's how I prefer to dress. She then started on this thing about how girls are supposed to wear skirts and dresses and pink and blah blah blah the usual gendered crap, but I just tuned it out. Amusingly only one woman at this party was wearing a skirt, and that was my mom.

But then it got worse. This girl picks up her little iPod with its speakers and starts playing that godawful "I Kissed A Girl" song. But then, then she turns to me, starts giggling, and says "She kissed another girl, isn't that weird?"

So let me recap. She not only insulted my gender identity and started playing a song that I abhor, but she then went and insulted my orientation when just last week I locked lips with Sara. It was the perfect storm of things to piss me off. At that point I reminded myself that strangling a 6 year old girl is not a wise course of action and retreated.

I know that at that age they just parrot what other people have said, but UGH!

There's also the fact that I can only take so may people at one time, and near the end there I was reaching my limit. I was pretty exhausted by the time I got out and a bit punchy, but I usually don't have to deal with so many people at once.

But to paraphrase something my dad would say, family are the only people who have to let you in when you knock on the door at 1 in the morning.
athenaltena: (Reading)
Okay, that's quite enough of that. Earlier tonight I met with a guy from one of my classes to work on preparing for the midterm, though mainly what we did was identify where the information we needed was, i.e. in which page of what book or which lecture that bit of information was in so we could work on it on our own later, which is what I've been doing for the past hour or so.

Well, I'm halfway through condensing the material into a Word Document list of preliminary answers to the questions and my brain feels like it's about to melt, so I think it's time to stop. I usually avoid study groups because I never seem to be thinking in the same terms as everyone and jump around a lot in my thoughts, but this particular kid was able to keep up with me and vice-versa. It was a good feeling, and we got a lot done. I wonder if this kid is an INTJ too. He certainly agreed with me that our main books is denser than War and Peace, and that you have to be taking notes while reading it in order to get anything, so it's best taken in small doses.

And now, ironically, off to more reading. I think I'm going to end up having my head buried in a book for about half of this semester, not that I'm complaining.

Bored!

Dec. 7th, 2008 04:57 pm
athenaltena: (Bored)
Good God, am I the only person at the University who's not stressed out about finals to the point of sequestering myself in my room to study or off in town/at home screwing around? I haven't seen any of my roommates in about two days since they went home, and while it's a bit nice to have the room to myself it makes me aware of how big this room is, and, believe it or not, it's a bit lonesome. Yes, this coming from me, a huge introvert.

Seriously, it's dull here. I spent some time prepping for my CrimJ final (mainly reading stuff over and brushing up on a few terms I was unsure about) but now I have nothing else to do. I went over to someone I know to knock on the door, and the exact words that came from the other side were:

"Can't talk. Must study. Finals will kill me!"

*tilts head* Ok. Everyone doing that, however, has the net effect of this place being incredibly boring. Not to mention the fact that the University mandates 24 hour "quiet hours" which cut down on the usual wacky occurrences under penalty of being written up. Not to sound dramatic, but it's too quiet.

I did go to the Arlington St. church today and help out in the kitchen again. John, one of the guys there and an all around nice person, made very good lentil soup, and with the suggested donation basket we took in about $80 for the church. I was talking to John's wife Wendy as we were serving hot dogs and soup and I mentioned my major, and she pointed out that my major and minor (sociology and philosophy respectively) are very very UU. I hadn't thought of that, but she's exactly right!

Meanwhile, I will find someone and rope them into a Guitar Hero tournament (borrowing roommate B's game and controllers using my PS2) before I go batshit insane.
athenaltena: (Hokuto pink)
One thing we're starting to see here at Suffolk is the separation of the people for whom this was the right school and the people for whom it wasn't. I went with Jamie, a friend of mine, to Cambridge on Tuesday (after being woken up by that parade) and we ended up talking about that over dinner. Both of us are the type of person who doesn't need a particularly strong campus network in order to function, so this type of university, which doesn't have a proper "campus" and exists within the city itself, works for us.

There also isn't a very strong sports culture here, and though we do have sports teams (some of which are quite good, like the ladies' tennis team) it's not really taken that seriously, or at least not to the extent that some other colleges take them. Many of those people are going to be transferring are going to colleges like UMASS Amherst and ones that have much more of a "campus" and a culture that's basically all students, which like Syracuse tend to be more cut off from the city or town they're in, while here we're literally right in the middle of the city, meaning that once you step outside you're right next to the State House.

I've noticed that many if not most of the people who are transferring out have a bit more of a "herd" mentality. I'm not trying to insult them, it's just a behavior pattern. I'm most certainly not one of those people (only child, INTJ, etc.) so I've never gotten why some girls especially act like they can't even go to the bathroom if they don't have someone else with them. That's a fine way of living, since to some people that sense of community is very important, but it's not mine.

I just think that sociologically it's a very interesting phenomena, and if I had to tell someone who was thinking about applying here I'd make sure to tell them that. I definitely think I made the right choice, and even though I'll be sad to see some of them go I hope the people who are transferring do manage to find the right place for them.
athenaltena: (Iroh)
Now that our cable box is working properly again and giving us more than 24 channels (and yes I realize the irony that at home we don't even get that many on an antenna) I'm starting to remember why Jean Luc Picard is one of my role models. Most people seem to agree that Picard is an INTJ, so that might be part of why I gravitated towards him. That and Patrick Stewart is just awesome. ♥

That is all. Now I have to read part of a Civil War book for tomorrow.

Tired...

Oct. 8th, 2008 11:40 pm
athenaltena: (tired)
Ugh. For some reason I've been really exhausted today and actually went home to take a nap after class. I did however manage to wake up in time for the drag workshop, which is a post for another day.

I also just bought tickets to go home for Columbus Day weekend, leaving on Friday after class. I think I could use a break and some time with the family.

I did manage to "ploosh" as the professor calls it, in my philosophy class. She defines that as the moment when things come together. The exact metaphor she uses is that you have a bunch of sugar on top of the ice in iced tea, and though little pieces get through and sink down at some point they all come down. That's a "ploosh". She is a very interesting professor.

And speaking of Aristotle, turns out that he and I agree in several areas when it comes to balance between feeling and thinking. I wonder if Aristotle was an INTJ...
athenaltena: (Bored)
My personality type: the independent thinker
athenaltena: (don't mess)
So at work today I made an unfortunate rage-inspiring discovery.

Someone stole my plants.

Someone stole my plants.

Someone fucking stole my plants!!!

(Done three times to emphasize on how pissed off I was)

So yeah, someone thought it would be a brilliant idea to take the plants I'd been taking care of. They took the phlox that hadn't even germinated yet, dug up the pansies that I'd put in the ground and lifted the other pansies that were still in their pots. All gone without a trace, and no one saw who did it.

Now who steals a pansy? Really. I swore to Adam that if I find out who did that I will kick their ass. No one gets between me and anything I've taken care of for a significant amount of time. That extends to plants, pets, children and pieces of technology. Apparently getting very attached to things is also an INTJ trait, but there's a definite Mama Bear tendency in it for me.

Where's a Divine Buster when I need one? And if people are wondering why I keep referencing Nanoha, I'm referring to this incident when she gives the person who messed with her adoptive daughter what was coming to her.
athenaltena: (Strange)
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Warning: Has a brain and knows how to use it.

Agh!

Oct. 18th, 2007 09:56 am
athenaltena: (Duo)
I can't believe how many typos were in that Tsubasa thing I did yesterday! I guess I was more stressed out than I thought, but Jeez... That's bad for me, and I usually catch stupid little things like that. Oh well, at least they were just technical problems and not problems with the story itself.

Note to self: When stressed out, use a beta. Speaking of which...

I'm debating giving a copy of the story I'm planning to submit for that scholarship to either my English teacher and/or my mom to just get a second pair of eyes on it. Sounds like that should be easy, but with stuff like that that's so personal it's like baring part of your soul, and even though I trust both of them completely it makes me embarrassed to think about. Damn introversion/clam-like tendencies (and I think I am actually going to be voted as a clam on [livejournal.com profile] elementals_, so I'm not kidding about that last part).

That's something I'll have to address with Mark next Monday when I see him on top of all of this. I'm also getting used to the idea that I'll have to explain what I'm doing in my writing. I think I'll try that out here, so feel free to ignore this.

Why I do what I do )
athenaltena: (Hakkai)
From here.

Rose, you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz.

You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a "thinking" individual, you "take in" entire situations readily and can act on intuition.

Read more... )


Seems to match up, and I am a Libra, after all, so the "balance" bit makes sense. ;)

In all seriousness, though, when I was younger I was oversensitive to some stuff, especially sound, though I've learned to control that over time. The variation between logic and impulse also seems to fit pretty well.
athenaltena: (Juri)
Lost entry the first time, but here's take 2.

4 Adsurdities from today:

#1: A woman with no less than 3 golden retrievers in her car at work who talked like she knew me, told me to keep "climbing up the ladder" or something like that, and actually tipped me $3.

#2: A sign on the way back reading
Alpacas
------->
That made me say "Huh?" If the aim was to attract attention it certainly worked.

#3: Jon turning to me today and saying "I appreciate your quietness." Probably due to the fact that Chris, our new guy, has no filter between his head and his mouth and does not shut up, so by comparison I'm a godsend since I don't really talk unless I have to and I hate gossip/smalltalk with a passion (it's apparently an INTJ thing).

#4: And a non-work related one via [community profile] fanficrants :

Dogs don't purr.

Apparently someone thought they did, like a cat. Dogs do make a variety of noises but purrs are not one of them. That's almost as bad as the person who thought that horses wag their tails when they're happy. Or, how you can tell that a person has never been around said animal in their life.
athenaltena: (weapon of choice)
I finally did it. I'm making chocolate chip cookies. ^_^

I just sampled one, and they seem to have turned out well. The trick I heard about putting in a bit of milk to make them softer also appears to have worked, so I consider it a success. Yay for experimentation!

And randomly, took this while looking at stuff on [livejournal.com profile] intj_

Pirate Monkey's Harry Potter Personality Quiz
Harry Potter Personality Quiz
by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

I sort of expected that, if not the character then the type. I do tend to identify with antiheroes *coughFuumacough* so it makes sense.
athenaltena: (Haruhi)
In all seriousness, I know I'm not normal. I buried that idea a long time ago, and I've been doing better even since I banished that pesky little idea of fitting in. But seriously, where's the fun in being normal? And I think this quiz is pretty funny. ;)


Your Score: Crackpot - INTJ


20% Extraversion, 60% Intuition, 66% Thinking, 66% Judging


I lied

Aug. 2nd, 2007 12:28 am
athenaltena: (chibi)
One more thing:

Click to view my Personality Profile page

I usually end up as either an INTJ or INTP, depending mostly on my mood. I think it's a good combination, personally, and combines the amiability of a Virgo and the Judging of a Libra. I was born on the cusp, after all. ;)
athenaltena: (smile)
I think I've mentioned before that as a kid I was always up in my own head, and since I had the deadly combination of an introverted personality and two literary parents that usually took the form of making up stories in my head. I never actually wrote them down, but as I was cleaning up today I started thinking about one character I had from way back when, and how it was that some people probably figured out I was gay years before I did. If this character was any indication, there's just about no doubt that I really was born gay.

Read more... )

In other words, this whole thing started early - the writing, the attraction, and some of the character models. Next time I see Mark I might want to run this by him, just to see what he thinks. I now wish I'd written this stuff down, but I have a decent memory and can call up some of it. I think now that I'm more removed from that it's easier to look at, and maybe can be helpful.
athenaltena: (Lelouch)
I'm still "Rosemary-sempai" at least for the time being down at The Plant, though our three new people are getting better. I'm working mainly with an older girl named Ana, who's fairly nice and talkative. She also caught onto how to sell stuff really fast, though one thing keeps irking me (that's not in anyway her fault):

She's better at it than me, and I've been doing this for almost exactly a year. I don't really mind, it just bothers me that I'm lacking in that area. I hold myself to a pretty high standard.

One problem I have with that job is that I'm such an introvert that branching out and "selling up" as it's called is really hard for me. I'm not an especially confrontational person, and especially when I sense that someone's annoyed, having a bad day, really not wanting to spend more money I tend to not try to sell them up unless they really need it. Most of the time I'm pretty quiet and reserved, and while I think some people who go through like that I know that I don't do so well as far as sales go.

My strength is more in being the reliable person who does what other people (read: The Chump) don't and general upkeep. Jon has essentially said that I'm the most reliable person he has, but that might not be enough. I admit to being a bit nervous that the higher ups may decide that despite my merits I'm just not bringing in enough in terms of money, which would follow their usual pattern. I really hope not. I really don't want to have to look for work somewhere else. With any luck my role might shift to be less about sales now that we have more people. Maybe I'll bring that up next time I see Jon.

*sigh* I guess there was a reason that "salesman" was not listed on the ideal careers for INTJs page.
athenaltena: (contemplative)
I don't quite know why, but I've been absolutely exhausted for several days. I think it's allergy related, but whatever it is it sucks. The good news is that we're winding down to the end of the year, so it won't be too long until I can really relax. Oh well, I've been having trouble falling asleep lately so I'm watching Shark for a while.

Also, randomly, writing as Kamui is hard. For some reason with the CLAMP guys I find the "tougher" men, or at least the more deadpan ones (Kurogane, Fuuma, Doumeki) easier to write. I guess I identify better with them. *shrug* Kamui's being a bit difficult in terms of getting inside his head. What's ironic is that those guys are the ones whose emotions aren't as visible, which goes against the expected. But since I know I'm an INTJ it seems to make sense that I'd connect more with the introverts.

I don't really have the concept of muses the way that I think many people do, they don't take on specific identities, it's more about ideas or concepts, and usually pretty abstract ones. The current plot bunny was inspired partly by a short story read in my Asian History class ("Salem" by Robert Olen Butler) and it just took off from there. Since I tend not to really plan these I also go through dry spells, but I think I'm in a wet spell at the moment. I'll just have to see what comes out of it.

I'm also planning on showing the Utena movie to the 5 people left in my Gay and Lesbian Lit class after the seniors have left. We're at the point where it's a free for all, and it should be interesting. We'll see how they react to the car bit. XD

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